Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Chrapek Wedding :)

Back to Indy I go. Yet again. But this time for the much anticipated Chrapek wedding! I Cant WAIT to see Mrs. Alicia in her gorgeous wedding gown!!! You go girl! 

Well there has been a lot happen between now and the last time I was in indy. When I got back. I thought, you know, Jake is right, this long distance thing is too hard. We cant do it. I was considering leaving my job so I could move to Indy to be with him. I would have left in a heartbeat with the exception that I've made a promise and a commitment to my boss and I cant break that.

 So I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. Should I keep this thing going with jake long distance, or just let it go and maybe one day move out to indy and hope that we could be together. I decided to let go. HOLY HELL! That was a LOT harder than I thought it was going to be. I cried like a child missing their mommy!!! What in the heck is wrong with me! I'm a big girl, I can handle a break up! Oh wait, no, no I cant... Because shortly after I told Jake we couldnt be together, he decided he wasnt going to let that happen. Great! We're a mess. 

But on a good note. I talked to my boss about it and he said that within the next year, by April, we can have my assistant doing all of my work and I can move wherever it is I need to move. Indy, Arizona, wherever. It made me so much happier knowing that I can get the heck out of Texas. I told jake about it and we were excited to know that in less than a year I could be in Indiana and be with him. It was a relief. Lots of stress was gone and I just finally felt good about us for the first time in a while. Back on my happy high again!!! 

We are Super Hott! 


Fun at the wedding! 
Sarah Brought Mustaches! 
My Dates! Oh yeah! I had two! 

Phil!!! You look Skinny!!! love you! 

Ask me why I have no pictures of the bride. Well its because I was being a sour puss at the wedding. I danced my little heart out, got too drunk and said some very not nice things to the one person I have been trying to make it work with for the past month. What in the heck is wrong with me!!! UGH! Ended up going home. Not staying with Jake and going to get my stuff from his house the next morning. Funny how you can go to a wedding, have this new beautiful relationship begin, they are starting their lives together, and we cant even make it through a weekend together. Thats probably going to be the end of that. Maybe its for the best but my heart hurts!!!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

For My Grant's Birthday

Its never easy thinking about Grant. It always gets me in a sad mood and those things that come around once a year always get to me especially his birthday. Its sad because I will continue to get a year older each year, but he will forever be the same. Looking into the mirror I see myself get older, but his pictures always stay the same. He just keeps looking younger and younger each year. Its been 3 years since he passed away and each year we do a canoe trip in honor of him. I didnt get to go last year because I had just gotten back from Europe but this year I found a plane ticket that wasnt too expensive and headed out! 

Jake and I had been talking the previous week and he thought it best that we break up, but there was no way in hell I was going to let that happen. We talked on the phone for a few hours and everything felt a little better after our conversation. We were both feeling the same, except that now I had these thoughts in my head that he wanted to leave, which didnt make me feel to good but what am I going to do 900 miles away. He finally said he would give it a go and would pick me up at the airport when I came in for the canoe trip. 

You know, I thought it would be different this time, I thought I wouldnt have as many butterflies as I do, I thought that it would hurt to see him. But I was wrong. They were all there, but there was something missing. Something didnt feel the same as it used to but it still felt amazing to be in his arms! 

We agreed to do our own thing while I was out there. He went to a car show and I went on the canoe trip. (That I still dont understand buy maybe it was for the best). 

The canoe trip was a blast! So much fun! SO many drunkies! I didnt drink though because I didnt want to be a complete waste for when I got to see my man later that night. We had big plans to make dinner and relax, like a normal couple for once, and trust me we needed that!!! It was kind of a bummer that I didnt get to hang out with everyone at night, they all stayed out and camped but I knew that Jake and I needed to spend some quality time together and I could sacrifice a night of drinking for him ;) I'd really do just about anything for him at this point. Maybe thats silly but I want this to work out more than ever. 

April and Phil 

Jason, Sarah, Alicia, Greg and Jeremy in front
On the Bus On to drop us off at the top!

Getting ready!  
Cant wait for your wedding in a few weeks!! 
Love you Linds!

It is SO pretty out here! 
Sad face because she refused to stop trying to untie my swimsuit! Dang you 

Big Pimpin!

Post Greg drowning Austin's Kayak! 


Post Canoe Trip Bus Ride... Look at all those sunburns!

Sunday we got up went to breakfast with Jakes Family, came home, hung out then went to play softball with Phil, Phil's sister felicia, Humphries, Ashleigh smith, Brad and crap I forgot her name....really nice girl though.... Anyway, that was fun, I really liked playing even though I am terrible and dont exactly know all the rules. I do know how to drink :)  and that we did. 
Awww arent we cute!

Who's that sexy stud muffin!?
Lil Phil!
Love these girls!
Came home made dinner and hung out for a few hours before it was time to go to bed. We had to leave the house at like 3am to get to my 5am flight on time. UGH. But as tipsy as I was, my head was racing and racing about the conversations that Jake and I had the few night before. Maybe he was right, maybe the distance is too much. Maybe we should just walk away before we get hurt. I couldnt stop thinking it. He dropped me off at the airport and I went home. it was a strange goodbye. 




Sunday, June 2, 2013

Mowing The Lawn

So now that spring is here and the grass is growing like crazy I have needed to mow the grass so bad. I have a lawn mower and all the stuff to mow with but I just didnt know how. I have never mowed the grass before in my life. Just not something you have to do in Arizona. Plus my dad and little brother always did it for us.. 

Well I had been having a lawn guy come mow the lawn, I paid him in a case of beer evertime he mowed. Well a cases of beer starts to add up and I knew it couldnt be THAT hard to mow. So I went out to the lawn mower and tried to start it, Which I could but it was out of gas. i asked my nice lawn guy if I paid him one more time to mow the lawn if he would fill up the mower for me. He said he would. The next week I got out there, started it up and mowed my own grass!!! 26 years old first time mowing the grass. Go me. I also trimmed the bushes and the trees. the only thing Im still kind of afraid to do is use the weed eater for the edges of the grass... Maybe next year. 
Before on the left, After on the right!

Before
After
After